Chan, Maxx_MENG_2019

Title Chan, Maxx_MENG_2019
Alternative Title Dragon Pox, Lessons in Point of View
Creator Chan, Maxx
Collection Name Master of English
Description For most of my existence, I felt like a stranger in my own life. I was living a life, but it wasn't my life. I lived in my body, I sensed my thoughts, and I completed tasks assigned to me, but I was hardly in control. My mental illnesses were. I felt like a horror movie viewer, one that boos and throws popcorn at the movie screen whenever an onscreen character makes a horrible decision. Except my mental illnesses were the onscreen characters and I had no choice but to tag along or be left behind altogether. I had no popcorn to throw or boos to yell. I was a passenger in a body that was supposed to be mine, just along for a ride. I was a first-person body living in a third-person point of view following second-person orders trying to find the right point of view for me. Throughout my life, my various mental illnesses have forced me through many different points of view, a character of a story that I wasn't writing. I shifted to first person as I watched the effects of my illnesses on my deteriorating mind. I moved into second person when I experienced dissociation, commenting on my actions f rom a distance. Third person took over as I was forced behind a wall with my borderline personality disorder and myself separated into she,
Subject Mental illness; Point of view (Literature); Literature
Keywords Depression; Dissociation; Borderline personality disorder; Medication and treatment
Digital Publisher Stewart Library, Weber State University
Date 2019
Language eng
Rights The author has granted Weber State University Archives a limited, non-exclusive, royalty-free license to reproduce their theses, in whole or in part, in electronic or paper form and to make it available to the general public at no charge. The author retains all other rights.
Source University Archives Electronic Records; Master of Arts in English. Stewart Library, Weber State University
OCR Text Show
Format application/pdf
ARK ark:/87278/s61rz250
Setname wsu_smt
ID 96766
Reference URL https://digital.weber.edu/ark:/87278/s61rz250
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